If only they would…

I wanna cuss and scream and let these feelings out, but they are rooted in so deeply that it keeps me filled with doubt. I’m nowhere close to normal but you try to make it so with wishful selfish feelings that you force on me to grow. I’m never going to be nor was I […]

I’m starting to slip up

I’m having delusions and anxiety and unable to sleep or accomplish anything for the past week . Even worse II have started to take my meds at night again because I cannot shut my brain down and my anxiety is just out of control. I’m writing this to put the spotlight on my bad behavior […]

Walking between the walls

I am just going to write you a little poetry this time around. Here I go. Everything looks familiar, like I have been here before. Yet I’ve been walking on this journey now but I still can’t find a door. Surrounded by these walls and not a single day goes by, where I haven’t fallen […]

The thing about change

When I think about my life consistency is not a word I would ever use. However one word that is consistent in my life is change. I am consistently going through change and I don’t do change well. I am truly sorry to everyone internet and physical folks for anything I post over the next […]

The Noise

First off let me say I’m sorry for not posting for a while. You see part of this disorder is mood disorder, mine being bipolar type 1 rapid cycling. This means I have manic phases and I have depressive phases and they interchange very quickly from one to another. That doesn’t mean the phases are […]